My Life so Far.

Like the title. My life so far. Hurm, what should I type really? Okay, my life so far has gone though it's ups and downs. I mean, after my dad went to work again for a month, I have been so busy going to and fro from my house and my sisters' house. A lot has happened. When my dad was here, we always went to our new village in Lambir. I didn't like that place. Coz, sometimes it's so hot. And, the kids there are so freaking nosy.  My dad brought along my uncle and my aunt. My aunt is a stewardess. My uncle suddenly got the idea to make me a stewardess, too. I was like, wat the fudge? But, it was quite an offer, cuz, salary to being a stewardess is quite mind bugling. hahaha. I always thought about what job suits me best. I've always wanted to be a musician because I really love music and all that is associated with it. I love singing. I love playing piano and guitar. One day, I met a guy. He wants to be my friend since last year, he was the member of Sarawak Rappers. He knows a lot about music. He found out that I loved music just as much and that I knew how to sing. He made me an RnB beat for me to compose a lyric. I loved the beat, but, honestly, I have no idea what to write!! Ughh! 

Another story, when I was a my sisters' house, I always went to the backyard at the evening and watch the clouds and enjoy the soft breeze. I always eat alone there. My sister and my cousin are like, "Where are you goin? Outside? why are u eating outside alone?"

hahaha. 

HILARIOUS!

It was heaven having the time to sit back and enjoy the nature. There was this one time, few days ago actually. I was in the car. On my way to my sisters' house. It was drought in here, so I saw a lot of plants wilting and stuff. I watched every plant by the curbside, and then one moment, I actually CRIED. Like, wat the fudge, right?? I was so sad seeing the plants not taken care of. And I'm a peace lover. I love animals, n it wud break my heart seeing animals tortured.

Hurm, other story. My dad wanted to buy a Pajero and bring us to Kuching. Just me and my sister Alice n my mom laa. Not the whole freakin family. I was excited to go there and I can't wait for my dad to go home! My dad loved us so much sometimes it breaks my heart to look at his eyes. I couldn't look at his eyes for so long, cuz, his eyes is the sad kind. Sometimes, he gets to my nerve cuz he always scold me for not doing chores. I do, but, when I'm sick, nothing could bring me up. I never find excuses unless it's TRUE! 

......

since stuff happened, I'm single again. But, I'm not seeking. I still wanna be the brand new me. I got a Brand New Jones. When my baby is gone, it's My thing, My thing alone..

hahahaha. That's a song. If u knew songs! Music lover never miss a beat!!

AARRRGGHH!!! SPM result is out 16th March! noo!!! So fast the time has slipped. When I was at school, waiting for March to come was a lifetime! Now, it's a few ticks away. Like,, Wat the Fudge?? I wanna further my study somewhere overseas, cuz I wanna experience new things. But, I'm Always homesick whenever i'm away. I'm always sick. I think I'm dying. I have major migraine. Doctor said, I can't do anything about it. Im DONE! Period.

I hate it when my friends ignore me. Have other friends and treat those people better. It's like this is my personal International DIARY, huh? okay, just read, cuz, I'm intelligent. hahahaha. I have depression when I was 16 until a few months ago. I always cry sooo HARD. Even when I'm at school. My parents never knew bout this. Only my friends knew. I'm so emotional about everything. That's why I'm replacing the emotional-ness. haha. To, anger! Yeah, but i'm still hurt if people did something or said something offensive towards me. I can't handle pressure. But, I love adventure.

That's all for today.

XOXO